to care.Maybe it's becos i care too much..or Maybe.
I just decided to explode due to annoyance.
I'm sorry to say this but this seriously been bothering me for quite some time:
Have you ever came across people who are your friends/close/good friends who fail to confide in you after dropping a teeny bit of subtle hints ( sad sopppy msn nicknames included ) about what's bothering them?!
Well, I had.
( If they're your close/good friends , it's dissapointing isn't it?! but anyways, that's not my point , back to my story)
First and for most , you ask them : so , how's life ?! / how are you?!
Then their reply would be : ohh. I'm emo-ing / my heart's broken / I'm screwed…
Which will then trigger your brain cells to want to know more , to want to know what's making them so unhappy , to want help them by coming up with solutions to end their misery.
( Note: please . It's not keh-pohness. It's all out of concern because I care for all my dear friends alot.)
However, it's not that easy to reach out and just help! because even before you get a chance to ask them to please tell you what's bothering them , you suddenly sense their self defense mechanism doubled and they immediately shut down to any further questioning. Their standard unconvincing reply
( that I've already known by heart) would be :
ohh. I'm okay. It's nothing. I'll be fine.
And this really pisses me off.
Why?!
let me tell you why.
If you've already decided to drag that deep dark secret of yours , down to your grave , then keep it to yourself okie?! From the start till the end . Please do not give others the early picture- about big problem and then leave them hanging , worrying sick for you becos it's not fair to do so.
There I've said it. And I'm already feeling so much better now.
I know that some of you are probably gonna think that i'm being thick and a hypocrite for typing this out becos i was once like this too.
But hey , as far as i remember , i spitted everything out at the end.
And till today , i have yet to promise myself some deep dark hidden secret to be carried with me to my deathbed. whatever it is , this is merely my opinion.
ps/ to you know who you are. I'm sorry if I sounded harsh yesterday. I prollie have no rights to force anything out of you. I just hope you'll overcome whatever that's clearly making you upset and please do take care!
Yours truly,
Yan.